“So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you’re my only hope

I give You my destiny
I’m giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I’m giving it back.”

A Walk to Remember

“When somebody loves you, everything is beautiful.”

Toy Story 2

per-fec-tion [per-fek-shuhn] n.1. the completeness one feels when every physical and mental moment they encounter is in harmony with their heart 2. when the beauty of life overlooks the blemishes of reality: The gentleness of a first kiss / The smell of homemade bread / A hot, bubbling bath after a long work day / The laughter of a child / A morning of sleeping in / A cup of hot chocolate / The California beach on a sunny day.

Brandi Weeks

“All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all?”

Beautiful Things by Gungor

“Sometimes in life, things get messed up. People over think, over analyze, and assume. It’s human nature though. We aren’t perfect and I’m learning that more and more each day. Everybody’s beautiful, everybody’s flawed, and everybody deserves second chances. I don’t care what you did, how bad you did it or anything. Sometimes we just weren’t ready to make it right the first time. We’re only human, remember that.” -Unknown

“Love is stronger than death even though it can’t stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries, it can’t separate people from love. It can’t take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death.” -Unknown

“The day’s last one-way ticket train pulls in
We smile for the casual closure capturing
There goes the downpour
Here goes my fare thee well

There’s really no way to reach me
There’s really no way to reach me
There’s really no way to reach me
‘Cause I’m already gone

Only so many words that we can say
Spoken upon long-distance melody
This is my hello
This is my goodness

There’s really no way to reach me
There’s really no way to reach me
There’s really no way to reach me
‘Cause I’m already gone

Maybe in five or ten yours and mine will meet again
Straighten this whole thing out
Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy
This is the distance
And this is my game face

There’s really no way to reach me
There’s really no way to reach me
Is there really no way to reach me
Am I already gone?

So this is your maverick
This is Vienna.”

Listen to what I’m saying, because I truly mean it.

You are not defined by what has happened to you, what you could not control. You do not control what you think is best for me. You can only control the now, what is happening right in this moment, now. You can control the times we spend together, the times we talk for hours, the times we laugh uncontrollably, the times we care for one another, the times we pray, the times we love, the times we draw closer and fall in love all over again, the times we have now.

The uncontrollable does not control my love for you.

I have looked back in my past and seen regrets, especially in high school. I know I have probably hurt a handful of people just as much as people have hurt me. I am truly sorry for that. I know I have probably judged, criticized and gossiped as much as people judged, criticized, and gossiped about me. I am not proud of it. I am truly sorry. I have looked back into high school and wish I could have done things differently. I wish I could have made true genuine friendships with people who deserved it. I wish I could have made a difference, instead of being complacent. I see how much I have changed and wish that the impact I make on people NOW could have been used to help people THEN. I truly feel remorse for that. I just hope that the people who used to see me as someone I no longer am, will look past that judgment or categorization that I was put in, in high school. I am no longer that person and God truly had and still has to work on my heart, and the way I see myself, because the things I have gone through, no one truly knows except one person in this world. I really wish I could go back in time and erase the mistakes, drama, and way I treated certain people. Tragedy sure has a way of changing someone. I’m thankful I had a second chance, but wish I could somehow mend the hurt I did back then like the way God mended the hurt in my heart.